This is one of my favorite quotes and it holds so much truth. I’ve been talking and thinking about how much I love to write for years and years so I figured it might be about time I actually start doing it.
I am currently at a point in my life where all previous values and ambitions somehow lost their appeal. As of yet I have no clue where this new way is going to take me – a scary but also very exciting thought!
Until recently I was leading a typical career-oriented life. After Grad School I got my first job in advertising and worked my way up over the years. Always on the hunt for the next great opportunity I changed jobs, moved several times (also across countiries) as work required it and – without realizing it – totally lost myself in this process. One day I woke up in the morning and couldn’t come up with a single reason why it was important for me to go to work. All of the sudden my life seemed to have lost any kind of purpose. Of course that didn’t happen over night. But that morning it hit me totally out of the blue: high-speed and head-on.
I hadn’t been happy in my job for quite some time but never really allowed me to even think these thoughts. What right did I have to complain? I made a very decent living, my CV was flawless, the companies I worked for were all internationally renowned and some people would probably kill to just have one of them on their CV. But as the years went on I felt like a robot. All creativity and goals I once had had slowly but surely disappeared.
It took me about a year and a half to finally find the courage to listen to my hear and soul and break out of this “condition” that used to be my life.
I quit my job, went on a meditation retreat and started to make meditation and mindfulness practice a part of my daily routine. In a nutshell: I started to live again!
And this is where I am today. I have no clue what’s gonna hapen next but it doesn’t scare me anymore. I used to have a backup plan at all times – not this time though. Mindfulness teaches us to appreciate and enjoy the present moment because this is all we have anyway. The past is gone and the future is not here yet. If we are fully present in the moment there is no regret, no worries – just being!
Sometimes we have to give ourselves time and a break to do nothing. In today’s “always on” world we forgot how to listen to our inner voice – and only in peace and calm can it be heard again. So for now I will just follow Thich Nhat Hanh’s advise: Nothing to do, nowhere to go.